UGHHH. I'm sighing an aggravated sigh until the next two weeks are over. It's almost time for finals which means I'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to get everything done and accomplished.
I have to be honest, I'm not doing too great right now. This semester has kind of been a disaster for me and it's starting to take it's toll on my mental health. Luckily, I have a therapist that is super great.
I've been so depressed lately, which happens to me time to time. I've been struggling all week on writing (and saying) those words, because I hate admitting it to myself when I'm depressed. I feel like I'm failing, even though in my rational mind I know that isn't true.
Things just really haven't been going in my favor lately and it's really messing with my head. I applied for three big things recently and I didn't get any of them. The people who got them over me are definitely qualified for the job, but it doesn't make it hurt any less. Needless to say, I'm not enjoying life very much right now and am getting so frusterated. Maybe that's mellodramatic, but it's how I feel which makes it valid.
On top of that, I'm struggling with getting motivation to study for finals. All I want to do is sleep all day, but I've managed to bring myself out of bed and make it to most of my classes so I can stay satisfied with that.
Things haven't been all bad though, thankfully. I have some big preformances coming up that I'm really excited about, including one I'm doing downtown in a theater. I also have an audition coming up so that I can officially double major in music. I'm really anxious about the audition, but it's an excited anxious.
Other good things that are happening is I have some really exciting new ideas for LN;DL! I know I relaunched, but I still have big plans and ideas!
So my first thought came to me when I was talking to a friend earlier in the week. I realized that his story was so fascinating and I want people to have the chance to share their whole story. So I'm thinking that somewhere between every other week to once a month I'm going to feature someone new's story. I don't have the kinks worked out, but this is a broad overview!
Next, I want to talk to you guys on a different platform, not ending the blogs of course!. I realized that I have a lot of thoughts going through my head and I have a hard time putting them down on paper sometimes (or a screen). So I'm thinking about vlogging/making videos once a week starting this summer. Would you guys watch them?
And lastly, for now, I'm going to start back up with the fundraisers for a different organization every few months.
I could really use some feedback, so you should think about emailing me you thoughts here, or commenting below!
Sorry for the short, not so interesting post today but I just needed to get some things out there. Talk to you next Friday!