I actually cannot believe it's already 2017! I feel like I was just complaining about how my senior year of high school was going, and now I'm sitting here about to start my second semester of sophomore year of college. I never thought that it would come, and now that it has I'm feeling a little overwhelmed.
When they talk about sophomore slump, they aren't joking. I'll attribute some of this to the fact that I was experiencing some nasty side effects from my antidepressant (more on that in a bit), but good grief - I am so ready for summer!
I've been gone for about a month - when I left school for break things went into full swing. It's funny saying that because most people get to say the opposite, once they come home things slow down. But I was dealing with some things with family, and working full time, and then two days after Christmas I flew all the way to ITALY?!?!?!!!
I've never been out of the country - well if you can count Canada then go for it but when I went to Canada it was when I didn't even need passport to get over there. It was terrifying and exhilarating all at once. I was on a choir tour and sang in so many beautiful cities, met the friendliest people I've ever encountered, and drank the best wine I could image. I saw and sang for the Pope, I ventured around the beautiful city of Matera, and ate amazing pizza in Gesualdo. It was truly a trip to remember, let me know if you want to hear more about it - I'm happy to share!
On the plane ride home, I developed not only pink eye in BOTH eyes, but also a nasty sinus infection. It would have been fine if our flight home didn't get cancelled! I ended up stuck in New Jersey with 13 of my peers and then we made an 8 hour trek home the next morning in two cramped mini vans. What an adventure! Thankfully, my pink eye is cleared up, and I'm on an antibiotic for my sinus infection.
The next few days after I got home were jam packed with work and doctors appointments. I went to the doctor on Wednesday to get my antidepressant changed or a higher dosage after I thought it wasn't working. Turns out I was experiencing some of the side effects including irritability, and no motivation or energy. I thought it was just my depression make a nasty appearance, but turns out my medicine was doing the exact opposite of what it was supposed to do. That explains a lot of why I was having such a hard time doing... anything while I was taking it. Needless to say, I switched my medicine and we're going to give this one a try. Hoping for the best, but I'm prepared for anything to happen!
After an exciting start to the year, I've finally had some time to think about my new year's resolution. I'm always so bad at them because I make so many of them that are so big and impossible. I basically set myself up for failure. I'm going for a different approach this time around - making a broader resolution.
This year I'm going to live a healthier life. Not just eating better and losing weight - but living a healthy life in every single way. Yes, I would like to develop better eating habits, a more regular gym schedule, etc, but it's more than those things. I want to make sure I'm taking time to myself, checking in with my mental health regularly and make sure I'm okay - because surprisingly enough it's incredibly easy to slide through the stress of the semester and realize I'm really not doing too great - I mean just look at what happened with my medicine. Some other things that fall in this catergory for me include appreciating something good that happened every day this year, and keep going to therapy until both I and my therapist decide I am at a place where it is okay for me to stop going.
I'm not going to do these things every single day, but over time they'll become habits and I'll be doing them regularly. At the end of the year I won't be saying I ate healthy every day, I went to the gym 4 times a week every week, and I checked in with my mental state every couple days - but I'll be saying I feel so much healthier because I started doing these things regularly. I won't feel like I'm letting myself down, and I will (hopefully) feel happier and healthier.
What are some of your resolutions?
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