I get a lot of comments from people regarding my blog. Some negative, some positive. Usually ranging between the comments of "Do you really think you could make a difference?" to "You're blog has helped me so much". Naturally, I prefer the latter but I'm open to comments of any kind. No big deal.
While I get so many comments about my blog, the question I get stays pretty constant. It's always some variation of "Why do you blog?". Honestly, the simple answer to this question is because I love it. Let me elaborate though.
When I was younger, mental health was never really talked about. When I was about 9 or 10 I started showing the first symptoms of depression. I was lethargic, I had no energy and I didn't really want to hang out with my friends - not what you would expect from a 9 or 10 year old. At this point in my life I was being sexually abused, so these were typical side effects of that. When I went to therapy for my abuse, I never said anything about my depression - I never really said anything at all honestly but that's a story for another time. It took me 5 or 6 years to do anything about my depression and get treated for it. When I was treated for it, it wasn't because I said anything about it, it was because I said something about my anxiety. To me, that was 'better' than having depression. I got put on Zoloft which happened to also be an anti depressant and that's how it was treated. Later in life I went back to therapy (I was 17) and that's when I was officially diagnosed with depression.
I can elaborate on that in a later post if you want, but that's long story short of how I started my treatment of my mental illnesses.
I think that if mental illness wasn't such a taboo topic in society I would have been able ask for help much sooner. I wish that I would have been talked to about mental illness much sooner than I was. I know my typical audience isn't 9 and 10 year olds, but my typical audience is people who are going to have 9 and 10 year olds soon. I want to show my generation that mental illness isn't shameful or something that can be ignored. That's part of the reason I blog.
One of the things my therapist wanted me to try in my healing process was journaling. Okay, great! I bought myself a nice journal and wrote in it every night. It turned out to do more harm than good, because it turned in to me picking myself apart and centering in on all my flaws. I like to blog because I can use my words to reach a bigger audience and hopefully help someone. Blogging helps me express myself while focusing on things that aren't always myself. That's part of the reason I blog.
Most of you know that I'm a psychology major in my second year of undergrad. So it shouldnt be surprising to you that my life goal is to help people and I'm trying to get a head start on that process. I want this blog to be a tool people feel they can use. I want to write about topics from a personal point of view instead of a medical point of view. That's part of the reason I blog. It's easy to do a google search and find webMD's medical definition of a mental illness, but sometimes it's hard to relate those syptoms to what you're experiencing in your life. My hope is by showing you what I deal with (and dealt with in the past) and what my mental illness looks like, people will see they have some similar symptoms and seek the help the deserve.
Blogging makes me feel good about myself. It makes me feel like I'm making a positive influence on the world. The best feeling ever is hearing either someone I know or a complete stranger come up to me and tell me that I've helped them. I'm not always the best writer, and I don't always know how to say what's on my mind, but I love what I do. I want to do it for the rest of my life and I want to take it to the next level. Helping people is my passion and blogging is only a small portion of how I do that, and plan to do that in my life.
In short, the reason I blog is because I love it.
All of these reasons can be broken down even smaller and I would love to discuss those with you one on one. As always, you can send me an email here and I will email you back as soon as I possibly can.